Hope your all doing well. Sorry for my month absentees. Life has been very busy here on my end. Last week I finished reading Beth's Moore new book So Long Insecurity and it was amazing(not that this is shocking because I'm pretty sure Beth Moore writes only amazing books) I wanted to read it because i struggle with insecurity(the only fact I'm saying that to all of you on the Internet makes me insecure only highlights how big of a problem it is)...I suspect I'm not alone in my struggle. I never really had a problem with insecurity utill I was around 13- I don't know- I blame it on puberty who knows? Since then I've always been way too concerned with what other people think me (am I pretty enough, smart enough, funny enough, cool enough~what am I in high school? I really(pathetically)wanted to be liked. I figure it out if I can be the perfect daugther, student, friend, then that will guarantee that I'll be liked,never left by those I love and I will secure and happy! Simple, right???
The problem is perfection is a standard no one can attain and when I make mistakes I take it especially hard. And even if my actions were somehow perfect I still cannot control other people and how they will respond to me. This game I played (mostly in my head) had lead me to a lot of unnecessary anxiety and worry. And this is in part what Beth Moore talks in her books. I really never realized how insecurity underlies most of my worries and fears. The books talks about the Biblical principles that God has been teaching me a lot over the last couple of years.
This book highlights that my security is in Christ!!!! He had cover me with strenght and dignity. I have never have to think less of myself because I am whole and complete in Him. Ultimately to be truly secure I have to fully trust in God in all area of my life with all things. He is my Rock and my Security and I can trust in Him no matter what to work all things together for His glory and my good! I'm certainly not there yet in all areas of my life but I've made giants steps in the last few years and now after reading this book I'm hoping to see less (and hopefully none) of my life being control of fear.
I don't want to be held back from doing anything God wants for me because I'm afraid.
I really want to be genuinely secure women in every area of my life(there few that there not cover yet) I don't want to hidden behind the mask of perfection, and consumed with unnecessarily worries. With God 's grace I hope to get there!
In His love,
Magda
